I was diagnosed with Stage 3A breast cancer 2 years ago and told that even with chemotherapy and a mastectomy that I had a 50% chance of surviving the next 5 years. No matter how hard I try, I am often overwhelmed with the fear that I will die and leave my husband without a spouse and my children without a mother. I have been in therapy for over a year and yet I still lose energy to these negative feelings. I try to live in the moment, but at this very moment my best friend is in the last stages of dying from the very cancer that I was diagnosed with. I have a VERY hard time understanding what good came out of her situation for her and what will come out of mine for me. How do I rid myself of this abject terror that haunts me every day?