I just moved back home to help dad and my sister take care of mom who has alzheimers disease...in the process (back in August) I realized I was not happy in my marriage and wanted out. I have since been living with my sister and her partner. My father has given me the greatest opportunity to go back to college to complete my education. I have been out of the workforce for over 15 years due to being housewife, mother, and caregiver. I am burned out, 50 yrs old, and totally not independent. I was born deaf, wore hearing aid from age 2 until age 47...then got cochlear implant which parents pushed for on me since implant was invented! I am forever grateful that my parents talked me into getting cochlear implant. ( you might notice that I'm "scattered all over the place" trying to make my point! I know for a fact that I've lived my life in / thru others...which is pathetic. I am trying so hard to find my true passions...trying to find ME while theres so much chaos! Pretty soon my sister will have to have major surgery so I'll be taking care of her. I know I've lost KIM somewhere under the rainbow! I no longer desire to be married or to be with another man as long as I live due to being raped and beat up repeatedly..... I also know that I am very caring, compassionate, have creative ideas inside my head screaming to get out....I guess I need some direction. A friend told me that I must take one day at a time and have faith in God.
Ariane, I hope to get your book when it comes out! I hope that I can make changes that will help make my life more full and joyful....because life is too damn short....
There are angels among us and you are definitely one!
love,
kim